HE TEACHES ME

SOME DAYS ARE HARDER THEN OTHER'S, SUNDAY WAS A REALLY HARD DAY FOR BOTH ME AND JOSH, I BROKE DOWN IN SACRAMENT I COULD FEEL KAYLEE'S SWEET SPIRIT I KNEW SHE WAS THERE WITH US, I COULD NOT STOP CRYING I TOLD JOSH TO GIVE ME THE KEYS HE SAID LETS JUST GO HOME, ZAK WAS PLAYING ON OUR BENCH WITH SOME OF HIS FRIENDS WE TOLD HIM TO START CLEANING UP SACRAMENT WAS ALMOST OVER ANYWAYS. WE TOLD HIM TO COME HERE WE TOLD HIM WE WHERE GOING HOME HE SAID ALL SAD I CAN'T GO HOME I TOLD MY TEACHERS I WOULD BE THERE IN PRIMARY AND IF I DIDN'T GO I WOULD BE LYING TO THEM. HE HAD GONE UP TO THEM BEFORE CHURCH HAD STARTED TO TELL THEM HI. AT THAT MOMENT I THOUGHT HERE IS A 5 YEAR OLD TEACHING ME I KNEW I NEEDED TO BE STRONG FOR ZAK, I AM SO THANKFUL FOR MY LITTLE GUY REMINDING ME THAT I CAN DO HARD THINGS. I FEEL SO BLESSED TO HAVE HIM, WHAT A HONOR IT IS FOR ME TO BE HIS MOM, I CHERISH EVERY MINUTE I HAVE WITH HIM EVEN THOUGH SOME TIMES IT'S HARD BUT I HAVE LEARNED SO MUCH FROM ZAK THESE LAST COUPLE OF MONTH'S HE IS MY LITTLE BUDDY, WE LOVE HIM SO, SO MUCH. THANKS ZAK FOR TEACHING US WHAT IS IMPORTANT!!

IF HEAVEN WASN'T SO FAR A WAY

YESTERDAY I GOT THE OPPORTUNITY TO GO TO A LITTLE BOYS FUNERAL HE WAS IN MY MOM AND DADS WARD HIS NAME WAS PAXTON HE DIED AT 3 YEARS OLD. SUNDAY WAS A HARD DAY FOR JOSH AND I MY MOM CALLED ME ON SUNDAY NIGHT AND SAID I FEEL LIKE YOU NEED TO COME TO THIS LITTLE BOYS FUNERAL I FEEL LIKE THEY MIGHT SAY SOMETHING TO HELP YOU IN YOUR GRIEVING, AS MY MOM WAS THINKING THAT, MY DAD CAME HOME AND HE TOLD MY MOM THE SAME THING THEY SAID THAT ELDER HOLLAND WAS SUPPOSE TO BE THERE. I TOLD MY MOM I WOULD LOVE TO GO, A FRIEND ANSWERED MY PRAYER, I CALLED TO SEE IF SHE COULD WATCH ZAK FOR ME I KNEW IT WOULD BE LONG, I WAS SO GRATEFUL SHE COULD WATCH HIM FOR ME. ABOUT 15 MINS BEFORE IT WAS TOO START ELDER HOLLAND WALKED IN THE ROOM EVERY ONE STOOD AS HE WALKED IN THE SPIRIT WAS SO STRONG YOU COULD FEEL IT I OF COURSE STARTED CRYING I THOUGHT THIS IS NOT GOOD. BUT IT WAS A WONDERFUL FUNERAL ELDER HOLLAND SPOKE HE HELPED HEAL MY HEART, AFTER THE FUNERAL I TOLD MY MOM THAT I WANTED TO GO SHAKE ELDER HOLLANDS HAND IT WAS SO SPECIAL SOMETHING I WILL TREASURE FOREVER I SHOOK HIS HAND AND TOLD HIM I ENJOYED THE THINGS HE HAD SAD AND THEN, I TOLD HIM I HAD LOST MY SWEET LITTLE GIRL 2 MONTHS AGO, HE THEN GAVE ME A BIG HUG!! IT HELP ME SO MUCH, I AM THANKFUL FOR PARENTS WHO LISTEN TO THE SPIRIT, AND FOR A SWEET FRIEND THAT WATCHED ZAK FOR ME. WE ARE SO BLESSED TO HAVE THESE WONDERFUL MEN HERE ON THIS EARTH TO HELP GUIDE, TEACH US.I KNOW ELDER HOLLAND IS A SPECIAL SERVANT OF OUR HEAVENLY FATHER. I AM SO THANKFUL FOR YESTERDAY AND BEING ABLE TO BE THERE. I PRAY FOR THIS SWEET FAMILY THAT THE LORD WILL COMFORT THEM AT THIS HARD TIME IN THERE LIVES. I DO WISH THERE WAS VISIT HOURS IN HEAVEN I HAVE MANY LOVES ONE UP THERE, AND NOW MY SWEET KAYLEE. THERE IS A COUNTRY SONG IF HEAVEN WASN'T SO FAR A WAY, IT TALKS ABOUT HOW HE WOULD TAKE HIS KIDS UP TO HEAVEN AND INTRODUCE THEM TO THERE GRANDPA AND SPEND THE DAY WITH HIM AND OTHER LOVED ONES. BUT I DO KNOW THAT THEY ARE NOT FAR FROM US I BELIEVE THEY ARE WATCHING OVER US AND ARE PROTECTING US, AND WANT US TO BE HAPPY.

SWIMMING LESSON TREATS

THE ONE ON THE LEFT WAS FOR HIS FRIENDS, THE ONE ON THE RIGHT WAS FOR HIS TEACHER, IT'S HARD TO SEE HERE I PUT ALL THE STUFF IN A BEACH PAIL.

ZAK HAD SUCH A FUN TIME AT SWIMMING LESSONS, HE WAS SAD TO SEE IT END, WE MEET SOME NEW FRIENDS. WE THOUGHT WE WOULD MAKE SOME OF OUR NEW FRIENDS, AND THE TEACHER OF COURSE A TREAT!! I LOVED WATCHING ZAK I AM SO GLAD I GET TO HAVE THESE MOMENTS WITH HIM CUZ I KNOW THEY GROW UP WAY TO FAST.

ZAK'S 5TH BIRTHDAY

I CAN'T BELIEVE I FORGOT TO POST ZAK'S 5TH BIRTHDAY THAT WAS ON NOV 17TH. I GUESS IT NEVER TOO LATE. WE DID A LOADER PARTY FOR ZAK SINCE HE LOVE'S LOADER TRACTORS IT WAS FUN TO DO I USUALLY START A YEAR A HEAD PLANNING IT, I KNOW I AM CRAZY LIKE THAT I HAVE ALREADY BOUGHT STUFF FOR ZAK'S PARTY THIS COMING YEAR, ITS GREAT TO DO THAT CUZ ALL YEAR LONG YOU CAN KEEP YOUR EYE'S OPEN ON THINGS THAT GO ON SALE OR CLEARANCE. I HAD FUN MAKING THE INVITES THE ROCKS ON THE LOADER ARE CHOCOLATE COAL I SAW THEM AND THOUGHT THOSE LOOK LIKE BIG ROCKS THAT GO INTO A LOADER. ZAK LOVED THEM, ITS FUNNY HE ALWAYS THANKS ME AND TELLS ME MOM IT GOING TO LOOK GOOD. HE EVEN LOVES TO HELP US SET UP HIS PARTY, HE GETS SO EXCITED.

THIS IS WHAT THE OUT SIDE OF THE INVITE LOOKED LIKE

I LOVED THE COLORS BLACK, YELLOW, ORANGE. I ALSO MADE THE 2 HAPPY BIRTHDAY BANNER I LOVE MAKING THEM

ONE OF THE TABLES SET UP WITH THE DRINKS AND CAKE

PARTY FAVORS TABLE 

WHEN YOU WALKED IN YOU WHERE GREETED WITH THE SIGN

I MADE IT EASY ON ME ZAK WANTED PIZZA, AND BREAD STICKS HE COULD EAT THAT EVERY DAY HE LOVES PIZZA

I ALSO HAD SALAD I PUT THEM IN THESE CUTE LITTLE CUPS I FOUND THEM AT TARGET IN THE DOLLAR SECTION, ALSO PUT PIZZA SAUCE TO DIP YOUR BREAD STICKS IN THESE OTHER CUTE CUPS SO FUN

ZAK WAS HAVING SO MUCH FUN WITH HIS COUSINS

HE GOT LOADS OF PRESENTS!

THIS SWEET LADY LOVES ZAK SHE WORKS AT JOANN'S FABRIC AND IS ALWAYS BUYING HIM THINGS WHEN WE GO IN SHE GAVE HIM A FURBY, WE COULD NOT BELIEVE  IT THEY ARE LIKE 60.00 DOLLARS BUT WE LOVE HER

ZAK HAD TO INVITE HIS CUTE PRESCHOOL TEACHERS HE WAS SO EXCITED TO SEE HER COME

ZAK BLOWING OUT HIS CANDLES I ADDED THE CANDY ROCKS AND LOADER TO THE CAKE

WHAT A SPECIAL DAY THAT WAS, WE ARE SO BLESSED TO HAVE HIM IN OUR HOME HE HAS SUCH A SWEET HEART!! WE ARE SO THANKFUL FOR HIS BIRTH MOM MELISSA  WE LOVE HER AND HER FAMILY SO, SO MUCH WE COULD NOT ASK FOR A SWEETER LITTLE BOY. WHAT A BLESSING HE IS!!! THANKS FOR ALL THOSE WHO CAME AND HELP CELEBRATE ZAK.

FIRST YEAR OF SWIMMING LESSONS

ZAK STARTED SWIMMING LESSONS YESTERDAY, HE IS TAKING THEM AT SOMEONES HOUSE IN DRAPER, IT HAS BEEN FUN WATCHING HIM YESTERDAY HE WAS THE ONLY ONE IN HIS CLASS BUT TODAY THERE WAS 2 OTHER GIRLS HE HAS BEEN LOVING IT, HE GOES MONDAY - THURSDAY FOR 1/2 HOUR FOR TWO WEEKS. FUN TIMES, BY LITTLE BOY IS NOT A BABY ANY MORE I WISH I COULD FREEZE TIME.

{HAPPY 4TH OF JULY}

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!! I LOVE THIS HOLIDAY AS WELL I HOPE EVERY ONE HAS A SAFE AND FUN 4TH WITH THERE LOVED ONES WE SURE WILL, I HAD A OLD TABLE THAT I USED BOTH OF THE TOP AND BOTTOM OF THE TABLES TO MAKE THESE FLAGS, THE FIRST ONE I GOT THE BIG STAR IN IDAHO IN FEBRUARY  FOR $3.00 I KNEW I COULD FIND SOMETHING TO DO WITH IT I LOVE HOW SPARKLY THE STAR IS IT IS REALLY BIG. I LOVED HOW THEY TURNED OUT THE BOTTOM ONE I STILL NEED TO ANTIQUE A LITTLE. IT HAS BEEN FUN TO DO LITTLE PROJECT. SUPER CHEAP PROJECT I LOVE THOSE KINDS. HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!!