MOMMY I'M SORRY

THE OTHER NIGHT I WAS PUTTING ZAK TO BED, I LOVE THAT TIME ME AND HIM HAVE TOGETHER, I ALWAYS READ HIM BOOK'S, ALOT OF THE BOOK'S ARE FROM MELISSA (ZAK'S BIRTH MOM- ANGEL), OR MELISSA MOM, THERE IS ONE THAT SHE GAVE US ON THE DAY SHE PLACED ZAK WITH US, IT IS CALLED ON THE NIGHT YOU WHERE BORN, I LOVE IT, IT TALKS ABOUT HOW WE ARE ALL SPECIAL AND THAT THERE WILL NEVER BE ANOTHER YOU, SO CUTE ANYWAY I ALWAYS HAVE OUR LITTLE TALK, JOSH AND ZAK HAVE THERE TALK BEFORE ZAK AND I GO UP TO READ, SOMETIMES I GET SO CHOCKED UP WHEN I TELL HIM STUFF ABOUT HOW WE WAITED 10 YEARS FOR HIM AND THEN I TELL HIM ABOUT THE FIRST TIME MEETING MELISSA AND HER MOM AND AUNT, AND ABOUT THE DAY HE WAS PLACED IN MY ARMS TO SEE HIM FOR THE FIRST TIME, I USUALLY START CRYING MANY OF YOU KNOW I'M A BABY I GET IT FROM BOTH SIDE'S OF MY FAMILY, ANYWAYS AS I WAS TELLING ZAK SOME OF THESE THINGS THE TEARS KEEP ROLLING DOWN MY CHECK ON TO HIS HE LOOKED ME IN THE EYE'S AND SAID MOMMY I'M SORRY, I SAID NO ZAK YOU DID NOT DO ANYTHING THESE ARE HAPPY TEARS, I KNOW ONE DAY HE WILL UNDERSTAND, JOSH AND I LOVE WHEN WE HEAR HIM SAY THAT. WHEN JOSH GOT HURT OVER CHRISTMAS HE WOULD BUMP HIS LEG HE WOULD ALWAYS SAY SORRY DADDY, ALSO ZAK THREW UP FOR THE FIRST TIME A COUPLE DAYS AGO, I FELT SO BAD I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT WE HAD A PRIMARY PRESIDENCY MEETING TO GO TO SO I WAS WAKING ZAK UP EARLY, HE MY GOOD SLEEPER HE SLEEP'S TELL 9:30-10:00AM LOVE IT, ANYWAYS I WENT IN TO WAKE HIM UP AND HE SLEEPS WITH HIS TEDDY BEAR, I PICKED IT UP AND HE WAS ALL WET, I WAS LIKE THAT FUNNY THEN I LOOKED DOWN AND THERE WAS THROW UP ALL OVER HIS PILLOW, I SAID ZAK COME HERE I PICKED HIM UP, I SAID THE NEXT TIME YOU DON'T FELL GOOD CALL MOMMY AND I WILL COME RIGHT IN, BLESS HIS HEART, OF COURSE I WAS NOT SURE WHAT TO DO I FELT LIKE A NEW MOM ALL OVER AGAIN,MY SWEET SISTER AND MOM TOLD ME THINGS TO DO, THIS BOY WHEN EVER HE IS SICK I NEVER KNOW IT HE ACT JUST FINE, IN A WAY IT'S GOOD AND IN ANOTHER NOT GOOD, HE IS FEELING BETTER THANK GOODNESS.