PRESCHOOL MEMORIES!!

SCHOOL STARTED ON AUG 30TH, THE NIGHT BEFORE MY MOM CALLED ME ASKING ME IF I WOULD LOVE TO GO UP TO THE HOSPITAL TO HAVE LUNCH WITH MY DAD HE WORKS AT THE U OF U HOSPITAL THEY WHERE GOING TO HAVE A BBQ I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE GREAT SINCE I WAS REALLY WORRIED ABOUT HOW I WAS GOING TO DO AFTER I DROPPED ZAK OFF. I ALSO THOUGHT IT WOULD HELP HAVING MY MOM THERE WITH ME WHEN I DROPPED ZAK OFF, THAT MORNING I TOOK PICTURES OF ZAK HE WAS NOT WANTING HIS PICTURE TAKEN SILLY BOY, I THEN COLORED A HEART ON HIS HAND, I TOLD HIM IF HE GETS SAD OR SCARED TO LOOK DOWN AT HIS HAND AND SEE THE HEART, AND THEN REMEMBER THAT YOUR DADDY AND MOMMY LOVE YOU AND WILL BE THINKING ABOUT YOU! MY MOM CAME WE GOT THERE REALLY EARLY SO WE DROVE AROUND ZAK WAS REALLY WORRIED SAYING I CAN'T BE LATE. MY MOM AND I LAUGHED. THEN IT WAS TIME HIS TEACHER CAME OUT AND SAID HI ZAK SHE REMEMBERED HIS NAME AND GRABBED HIS HAND I OF COURSE WAS CRYING I GOT IN THE CAR AND SAID MOM MAYBE I SHOULD GO IN TO MAKE SURE HE IS ALL RIGHT SHE SAID NO HES FINE. I WAS SO GLAD TO HAVE MY MOM THERE. WE THEN WENT UP AND HAD LUNCH WITH MY DAD, MY BROTHER AND MY SISTER AND HER LITTLE GUY. I WAS SO GLAD I WENT SO I COULD TRY AND KEEP MY MIND OFF ZAK. HE DID GREAT HE LOVES SCHOOL AND THE TEACHER AND HER HELPERS LOVE HIM AS WELL. I STILL MISS MY LITTLE GUY WHILE HE IS AWAY I GO TO SOME STORES, AND I THINK ZAK WOULD LOVE TO BE HERE BUT I KNOW HE IS GROWING AND LEARNING, AND BUILDING FRIENDSHIP WITH OTHER KID AND THAT IN ITSELF MAKES ME HAPPY.

DEAR ZAK, I WONDER WHAT YOU ARE DOING RIGHT NOW, AND IF EVERYONE IS TREATING YOU KIND. I HOPE THERE IS A SPECIAL PERSON, A NICE FRIEND THAT YOU CAN FIND.I WONDER IF THE TEACHER KNOWS JUST HOW SPECIAL YOU ARE TO US.AND IF THE BRIGHTNESS OF YOUR HEART IS SOMETHING SHE CAN SEE. I WONDER IF YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT ME, AND IF YOU NEED A HUG, I ALREADY MISS THE SOUND OF YOUR VOICE AND HOW YOU GIVE MY LEG A HUG. I WONDER IF YOU COULD POSSIBLY UNDERSTAND HOW HARD IT IS FOR ME TO LET YOU GROW.ON THIS DAY KNOW THAT MY HEART BREAKS, FOR THIS IS THE FIRST STEP IN LETTING MY BABY GO. I LOVE YOU MY CUTE BOY. LOVE YOUR MOMMY

THIS ONES FOR YOU HALEY

I WILL DO ANOTHER POST AND LET YOU ALL KNOW WHY I AM DRESSED LIKE THIS, LETS JUST PUT IT THIS WAY IT LIKE CHRISTMAS HERE, I CAN'T WAIT TELL THURSDAY NIGHT, THANKS AGAIN HALEY !!

PRESCHOOL/ MEDICAL SCHOOL (PART 1)

I NEVER THOUGHT THIS DAY WOULD COME WHEN ZAK WENT TO PRESCHOOL, MOST OF YOU KNOW THAT WE WAITED FOR ZAK FOR 10 YEARS, HE IS MY BUDDY, BACK IN MAY I CALLED THE SCHOOL TO GET SOME INFO ON PRESCHOOL, JOSH AND I WHERE NOT SURE WHAT WE WANTED TO DO, THEY TOLD ME I WOULD KNOW MY JULY 10TH IF HE GOT IN THERE IS A WAITING LIST I GUESS I JUST THOUGHT THEY WOULD SAY IT WAS FULL , BUT NO I GOT A LETTER SAYING HE WAS IN, I THOUGHT WELL I GUESS I HAVE A LITTLE WHILE TO THINK ABOUT IT, AND I LEFT IT AT THAT I WOULD GO BACK AND FOURTH ON WHAT I SHOULD DO JOSH DIDN'T REALLY CARE WHAT I CHOSE, THEN IT CAME TIME FOR HIM TO MEET HIS TEACHER. THEN I THOUGHT I NEED TO DECIDE I KEEP THINKING ABOUT HOW HE LOVES PLAYING WITH OTHER KID, AND I WOULD TALK TO HIM ABOUT PRESCHOOL HE WOULD GET ALL EXCITED. HE WOULD SAY MOM I'M NOT GOING TO PRESCHOOL I'M GOING TO MEDICAL SCHOOL LOVE, LOVE MY SILLY LITTLE BOY. THE DAY I PULLED UP TO PAY FOR HIS SCHOOL I SAID ZAK ARE YOU SURE YOU WANT TO GO HE SAID YES MOMMY DON'T WORRY I WILL COME BACK HOME, I SAID I KNOW YOU WILL ITS JUST HARD FOR MOMMY BECAUSE WE WAITED SO LONG FOR YOU HE SAID MOMMY THEY SAY LET HIM GO, I DID NOT KNOW IF I WANTED TO LAUGH OR CRY, I THINK HE SAID THAT BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT MOST EVERYONE WOULD SAY, BUT OF COURSE I WAS CRYING DON'T GET ME WRONG I WANT HIM TO GO AND LEARN ALL THAT HE CAN AND HAVE OTHER KIDS TO PLAY WITH BUT IT STILL HARD. WE WENT AND MEET HIS TEACHER A WEEK BEFORE SCHOOL STARTED, HE WAS SO EXCITED, I MADE UP A TREAT BUCKET WITH SOME GOODIES IN IT, ZAK EVEN HELPED ME PICK OUT THE PAPER TO MAKE IT. THEN THE NIGHT BEFORE SCHOOL MONDAY NIGHT FOR FAMILY NIGHT I HAD HIM DO A LITTLE SCAVENGER HUNT WE STARTED OFF BY GIVING HIM HIS BACK PACK THAT HE PICKED OUT THEN HE WOULD GO AROUND FINDING THINGS LIKE GLUE, MARKERS ETC AND FILLED HIS BACK PACK, I WISH I WOULD OF VIDEO IT HE WAS HAVING SO MUCH FUN I WILL NEVER FORGET HOW EXCITED HE WAS. THEN JOSH GAVE HIM A FATHERS BLESSING, HE DID SUCH A GREAT JOB, I REMEMBER EVERY YEAR MY FATHER WOULD GIVE US A FATHER'S BLESSING EACH YEAR BEFORE SCHOOL WOULD START. I WILL DO ANOTHER POST ABOUT THE FIRST DAY, I AM SO BEHIND ON MY BLOG I HOPE TO GET JULY AND AUG UP DATED ON HERE AS WELL, ALL I KNOW IT HAS BEEN HARD HAVING MY LITTLE BUDDY A WAY EVEN IF IT IS ONLY TWO DAYS A WEEK FROM 11:30 TO 1:45 I STILL MISS HIM, BUT I KNOW IT IS FOR THE BEST EVEN IF HE IS MY LITTLE SHADOW AND SHOPPING BUDDY. I LOVE MY LITTLE MAN!!